im finally going to have a car!!!! it will be mine on thursday!!! of course...it is a bit expensive...and i am going to have to start working a lot more to pay it off...but still. it will be mine on thrusday!!!! ^^

im dont know what to do. if i dont take the meds...then i have to take the horrible pain. if i do take the med...i have to take the nausia. i dont remember a time i threw up so much...and there isnt anything in my stomach but stomach acid to throw up...::pout:: i just want the pain to go away as well as the sickness. stupid surgery.

gah...i have the biggest headache in the world caused by the most annoying siblings ever...
i have surgery tomorrow so i am not allowed to take any meds...
::pout::

its been a long time since i have written in this thing. i guess that would have to be because im so fascinated by myspace nowadays. nothing really interesting in my life right now...at least there is nothing that i really want to talk about. hmm....yeah...i have nothing else to say...

all i have written lately is how lonely i am...not true. i am quite happy now. hey! its 2006! only a little longer and i graduate! w00t.

im so tied of waiting...
im waiting for nothing...
::sigh::
when will this vacation finally end? im so lonely...
::sigh:: i complain way too much.

i sit here every night for hours just hoping...
i hope in vain.

i really feel like crying...
...but for some reason the tears wont come.

::sigh::
i never write in this thing anymore...
all i ever do is the quiz things, but i never actually use it for my thoughts and all the stuff that make its purpose. the thing is, i havent written anything because im afriad what i write, the things i feel, will make people mad. i feel like my life is being judged by everyone around me, but at the same time i feel like there isnt anyone there. i guess it is my own fault that things are different now...my relationships have all changed. sure, we arent on bad terms (at least i hope not), but it is very safe to say that things are definately completely and totally different now. there is like an unspoken barrior between everyone and myself, at least everyone but adam. i feel as if he is the only one that i can talk to anymore and not worry about getting hurt. maybe i just complain too much. i suppose the thing that is causing me to write right now is the feeling of being completely alone. adam has gone away for a little while, and i feel as if i have no one. but, this is my fault. there isnt anyone to blame but myself. i have slowly undone the ties that i have had with friends. i knew that i was doing it. i guess i have hurt a lot of people, so the fact that i am hurting is just fair. i really love all of my friends, but i guess im just not that good of a friend. i want to spend time with everyone, but the truth is that i want even more to spend time with adam. there are times in life where i have believed that nothing ever changes, but that was such a stupid thing to think. things change. i thgink i will really regret writing all of this, but the truth is that im just tired. im tired of hiding, im tired of pretending. i say that im going to spend time with people, i say that im going to try...but the truth is that i just suck. why is it so wrong for me to love one person with all of my heart, and that no matter what they come first? wow, i dont think im making any sense. i just keep jumping from one thought to another. i guess im just feeling lonely...i miss adam a lot. i have made him my life and when he isnt here...there is nothing.

i feel so lonely...

Kairi


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i have been silent for a while...i guess i just have had nothing to say. well...i have been cried for the majority of the last 24 hours...i cried so much that i actually threw up. i didnt think that was possible. i felt a little better when i got online...but now im just back to the tears. it seems like everyone hates me out there, maybe i should just stay inside my own little world. but then.....thats how i got into this situation isnt it? i just dont know anymore...im going to try and open up the door again...but i dont think that i will be accepted. im questioning things...like how everything could end so easily in just one sentence. i know that to other people i sound annoying...and i know i am. i was just so happy...and i couldnt keep my happiness to myself...and yet...i did in a way. im just so confused with everything right now. im not sure what to do at all. i guess my eyes have opened to what people think of me and it just makes me cry...

i disagree with parts of this, but yeah. whatever. i was bored.





Dominant Personality: Understanding

Good Traits: You gravitate towards people,
and are a shoulder to lean on. You give advice
at any given time.

Bad Traits: You aren't close with any one
person. You immerse yourself in other people's
problems and forget your own.

People see you as: Friendly, secretive, and
popular. People envy you, and may try and use
you as a tool

You're most like: Grace. You both have
positive relationships with people. Neither of
you have close friends, but unlike graceful
people, you try to help people out and aren't
as arrogant.

You need more: Solitude. You hardly get the
chance to breathe when you take on the world's
problems. You can't take other's
responsibilities or put them before your own.
Be selfish once in a while and discover who you
really are.


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